20 years have come and gone in a blink of an eye. 20 years since you have passed, since you were taken away, since you left us, since I became motherless, since you died. That's 4 years more than what I was able to spend with you. 20 years stolen, ripped from my heart. 20 years of growing up and becoming who I am without you. I am not going to lie, it has been tough, it has been hard and gut wrenching, but the past 20 years have also been wonderful, amazing, life changing and blessed. The days between thinking about you has gotten longer, life events happen without wishing you were there, moments and breaths have been given. We carry on. We have too. Filling our days and life hoping for what could of been, should of been, does not allow me to be appreciative of what I have now. 20 years of learning, living and laughing. I am blessed with an amazing family, two beautiful children who know you, even though they never met you. A husband that loves me and all my quirks. An aunt who stepped in the moment you stepped out. A heart that is not broken, just missing a piece. A soul that knows we will meet again. A life worth living because of the love you gave it. I miss you and it sucks.
"They are not long, the weeping and the laughter,
Love and desire and hate:
I think they have no portion in us after
We pass the gate.
They are not long, the days of wine and roses:
Out of a misty dream
Our path emerges for while, then closes
Within a dream."
Hi, i'm jodi!
I am a wife to a railroader, mother to two daughters, caretaker of two Golden Retrievers and a Himalayan cat. I live in a small town with a big heart. I enjoy antiquing, furniture re-habbing, D.I.Y's and painting.